今天MsN..收到了她的婚讯，虽然心里已有预感，
但没想到来得这么快。从一个阶段到另一个阶段的跨越.

从frienster的照片,那个男人不错，老实本分，对她很好，不花心。两人应该会有美好的婚姻，多么甜蜜的场面呀！

不管于情于理，我都应该为他们祝服才是，但是心里却有些失落的感觉。我也不知道为什么。
我想我绝对可以敞开胸怀，坦然面对。不管以前发生什么，对不起,从来就没发生过.

我现在可以把她定位在“朋友”的位置上，保持这样平淡的距离。
但是…我却犹犹豫豫了。我没和她谈过恋爱呀，只把她当作好朋友而已，为什么会有这样的感觉。

不知道该不该参加她的婚礼，我是该一个人去，还是带个人去呢？

干嘛? 她都没邀我去.

新娘子的她一定会很漂亮，不过挽着另一个男人的手……

爱人结婚了, 新郎不是我…这首歌一直徘徊着.

我對我自己的勇氣 非常滿意 ,

這段不斷的掙扎 矛盾 抉擇的過程.

我抉擇让她知道.这篇终于上网了.

我想….我们都是脆弱而敏感的人，而永远在浪漫的感性和残酷的理性中挣扎.

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献上我无限的祝福之意，祝福你不论何时何地，不论在何处，
我都愿意让你知道，我深深地为你祝福.幸福至永远.

Muthu

Déjà vu

The term "déjà vu" ( French for "already seen", also called paramnesia) describes the experience of feeling that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously.

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I love dreams like that. 

i dreams about her. My dreams are always strange and sometimes unsettling.

Still, I love dreams. I rarely have the feeling of déjà vu. I am more familiar with déjà vu…the feeling that none of this has ever happened before.

i was falling in love which i didnt want to………..
i asked her many times 2 be my friend ,,but she told she had feelings for me.
Lucikly or unluckily we were in love ,

We used to talk on MSN for many hours ..
i didnt like talking to her on phone because i dont have her phone…..
So we met Online, frankly speaking …i loved her very much ,,

Before. i asked her for coffee.

She didnt like in meeting or coffee …

i tried to ask her ….
she told me.. its just a infatuation between me..

Its not love at all

a lot excuses..

She asked me many times could i forget her ,,
I say , i’ll try my best ,,

And "Who" seemed to be hurt ,,

i m sure that i liked her very much and i was interested in keepig things going..
But i screwed all things.
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i know somewhere she is now,,

But she is coming in my dreams ..

but she is coming in my dreams ..
but she is coming in my dreams ..

i think , i m in love with her ……….

I love dreams like that.

She’s always on my mind
From the time I wake up
Till I close my eyes
She’s everywhere I go
She’s all I know

And though she’s so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she’s gone
I’m still holdin’ on

So tell me where do I start
‘Cause it’s breakin my heart
Don’t wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
‘Cause heaven knows

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her
You’ve gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I’ll know she’s mine
So tell me where do I start
‘Cause it’s breaking my heart
Don’t wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
‘Cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair
‘Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she’s never there
And all the time I act so brave
I’m shakin’ inside
Why does it hurt me so

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
‘Cause heaven knows
Heaven knows
Heaven knows

Recently, I got the MSN of the girl I like and I was wondering since I am kind of shy and she has a very big boyfriend (don’t tell me not to do anything because of this. That’s not one of the options, BTW) so what should I do? Should I play myself off as a secret admirer who wants to chat or should I just tell her who I am but not tell her I like her?

Recently….with doubt

Well, I don’t see anything wrong with telling her who I m but i don’t know that telling her that i like her is such a good idea. She already has a boyfriend so that might cause problems to being friends. Besides, there’s nothing wrong with just being friends right?

Recently….with found something

Be straight forward with her. While wouldn’t be advisable to "spill your heart out" to her right now, since it seems that i don’t really know each other, I think getting to know her better, as a friend, and see what outcomes of it. After to know one another, if still feel strong feelings for her then I will go ahead and tell her or I might regret it later.

The "secret admirer" thing is NOT a good idea, girls don’t like guys messing with their heads, and that is essentially what i would be doing. She may find out and get mad, and that could ruin any future with her at all.

Recently…. I was her

Hmmm…. if someone told me anonymously that they secretly admired me, I’d be kind of flattered but also scared.

Now…………

My Dearest Lady,

I can no longer stand silently by without letting
you know a small measure of my feelings for you.
The time I spend with you is filled with indescribable
joy and happiness. You are the sunshine in my day.

I am but a man who is stunned by your inner beauty
and graciousness and I am compelled by my love
for you to let you know. The poem is not mine but it
so accurately describes my feelings, I wanted to share
it with you.

with sincerest love & devotion,
your Secret Admirer

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I Promise that I Will Love You

I cannot promise you that
I will not change
I cannot promise you that
I will not have many different moods
I cannot promise you that
I will not hurt your feelings sometimes
I cannot promise you that
I will not be erratic
I cannot promise you that
I will always be strong
I cannot promise you that
my faults will not show

But -
I do promise you that
I will always be supportive of you
I do promise you that
I will share all my thoughts
and feelings with you
I do promise you that
I will give you freedom to be yourself
I do promise you that
I will understand everything that you do
I do promise you that
I will be completely honest with you
I do promise you that
I will laugh and cry with you
I do promise you that
I will help you achieve all your goals
But -
most of all
I do promise you that
I will love you
-Poem by Susan Polis Schutz